Finally, we settled on a title.
There was Kissing Kelly because the three books prior are Dating Daisy, Promising Penny and Marrying Michelle, but I'm not a fan of 'kissing' in the titles all that much. Captivating really seemed to suit so it might not be KK, and is CK instead but there it is. Captivating Kelly.
Read on for a sneak peak at the prologue.
PROLOGUE (draft)
KELLY
BROWN SUCKED in a deep breath as she walked down the corridor towards the staff
café, nerves attacking her with each step, and along with them, regret.
The
nerves because she didn’t know what awaited her. It would be small. That she
knew. She’d asked for small. A cake would be nice, but that would be enough.
She tended to avoid her own hype.
The
regret because all this might have been avoided. Might have been something she
could have nipped in the bud, although she couldn’t even be sure of that. But
whatever it was, it was, plainly and simply, sad. She felt sad. It took an
effort at times not to look sad.
Maybe
some things were meant to happen for reasons she was completely oblivious to.
She
eyed the posters lining the walls as she approached the staff room; glossy,
glitzy promotional posters for the TV shows she’d worked on during her career.
And
what a career it had been.
She
stopped for a moment at the poster of Mystery Date, with host Rob
Robertson smiling along with Molly Jessep, his assistant. Bittersweet was the word
to describe what she felt when her mind wandered to Mystery Date. The show had soared in the rating from its
dubious beginnings to become the network’s top rated prime time show.
Only
now, she wouldn’t be the one producing it. Not for a while at least.
And
potentially, not ever. Because that’s what happened when you were so blind
to your own self, your life fell apart. When you were so devoted to
your job, when your job meant everything, when you ignored the signs that you
were burning out—until it was too late.
She
reached the café, pushed open the door, and stepped inside.
This
wasn’t small.
Applause
greeted her, loud and raucous with whistles and claps and cheers. The room was filled
with faces she knew and liked, and in that moment, the sadness was swept away.
It would come back. She knew that, but it had no place here and now with her colleagues
and friends gathering to wish her well.
She
swallowed down the thick lump in her throat at the two-tiered cake, and along
with it plates of snacks and goodies.
There
were balloons, too, and a “Bye for now, Kelly Brown” adorned one wall.
Bye
for now.
She
hoped that was true. Hoped it wasn’t ‘goodbye for ever’.
But
she didn’t know that. There was still a road to travel and she wouldn’t know if
she’d make it back, not for many months and therapist visits to come.
Rob
threw his arms around her in a bear hug and murmured, “How are you feeling?”
He
pulled away, his gaze probing. Concerned.
“I’m
feeling sad,” she said honestly, something she’d never have admitted a few
months back. “And a little bit—maybe a whole bit—scared.”
He
gripped her shoulders. “But you’ll be okay, Kelly. You’ll be fine. You get
yourself sorted out, and you’re back at the network. What was that phrase you
used? You’ll work on yourself and you’ll be back.”
She
gave him a wan smile. “You know that might not happen, Rob. It pains me to
think it but it might be that the best thing to do is to—” She couldn’t say it
out loud. To leave television.
Rob
squeezed her shoulders. “I know that. But we’ll do everything we can to make
sure it does happen, if that is what you want. Only what you want, Kelly.”
They
already had, and she nodded her thanks. There had been counselling. Time off at
first. Although it had became clear she needed more than a few weeks.
At
least, that’s what her counsellor and her doctor and her mother had told her.
Bill
Rollins, the head honcho, came up then, gave her a quick hug and said, his
voice gruff with feeling, “We’re gonna miss you, Kelly Brown.”
“Oh,
the show will go on without me.”
He
inclined his head. “Yeah. But you won’t be there and that’s one heck of a loss.
But at least you’re going to take this time off knowing how much we’re all
going to miss you.” He gestured to the table. “We’ve got food. Drink. One heck
of a cake. A lot of people want to wish you well.”
She
could see that. She could feel it in the atmosphere and she was so grateful.
“Thanks,
Bill,” she said. “You have no idea how much I appreciate this.” It was late and
there were so many people who could have gone home but who had decided to stay.
And
friends, too. Walking towards her were Daisy and Joel, and her spirits lifted
in an instant.
They’d
become friends after they’d appeared on the first celebrity episode of Mystery
Date, won a weekend away together, fallen in love, and married. Their wedding
had been televised and they were the Mystery Date success story.
Daisy
said, “I hope you’ll think about joining my new bookgroup at the shop. It’s all
about fresh starts and new beginnings.”
“Me?
At a book group? Discussing my life?” She shuddered at the thought.
Daisy
laughed. “I know. The last thing you want to do is talk about it in public, but
we’re getting speakers and Penny’s going to provide the snacks from her café,
so it’ll be a good time. I’ll send out the link for the dates. You’d be right
at home.”
“Because
I’m a Ticking Clocker?” she said wryly.
“I
thought Ticking Clockers,” Joel interjected, “were women who wanted a family
but were running out of time, biologically speaking. Didn’t you say Kelly, your
job was your baby?”
“I
did say that,” Kelly admitted, although right now, that baby was being put in a
foster home. Maybe even adopted out. She winced. What a stupid and ghastly analogy.
But in a way true.
Joel
said, “Kelly, remind me again about your new job?”
Daisy
jabbed him. “Oh my gosh, I told you all about it a million times.”
“Yeah,
I know but my mind is elsewhere.” He dragged his hand through his hair. “At the
rate this new professor gig is going, I’ll be taking mental health leave myself.”
A
soon as he uttered the words, he blanched.
Hastily,
Kelly said, “And if it happens, I’ll be the first to commiserate.” At least no-one
was skirting too much around the issues but then it had been hard to when she’d
suffered a meltdown in the studio and written off her car the next day turning
out of the studio car park.
Really
hard for anyone to pretend that had never happened.
“Sorry,”
Joel said apologetically.
“Don’t
be. It’s life. You just have to keep an eye on yourself. But you’ve got Daisy
to help out there.”
While
she had no-one. She had, but that relationship had contributed to the state she
was in, and just like she’d sworn off getting behind the wheel of a car, she’d sworn
off love. A hundred percent.
She
remembered Joel’s question and said, “My new job is at S.B. Security.”
“And
it wasn’t a problem with the health issues?” Daisy gently probed.
“No,
but then working in an office is different to the media. And I got amazing
references.” Once she’d realised she needed to get out of TV, and work had
offered a twelve month leave without pay, it hadn’t taken long to realise she
needed work. The first month she’d been okay for money, and then she’d begun job
hunting. Fortunately, her skills were complete transferrable and she was able
to find a low-level job that paid enough to get her through, and that was only 32
hours a week compared to her usual 50 plus, and it was in data. She loved data.
She loved analysing. She loved method and productivity and all that stuff. Even
better, besides the skills she’d honed, she’d also chipped away at a business
degree, even though she never thought she’d have to use it.
The
world of television was ‘it’ for her.
(end)
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